IM SORRY

i feel bad talking about the boy because i know he doesnt like me talking about him and there's a small chance HE will read this maybe possibly but i can literally ONLY move on if i talk about things plus its not like im like name dropping or anything 💔💔💔

look lil guy if u DO read this let me cope 💔💔💔💔

get mad all u want cuz thats like all ur good at or whatever or just like shoo if u dont read it then it doesnt exist

but i am MAD in all fairness

as much as a dickhead he was he was so UNIQUE

like where the fuck am i gonna come across another critter like that again so uniquely amazing yet so fucking infuriating and confusing i have never met someone who has made me so confused in such a short amount of time like what THE HELL

AND HELLOOOOO bros so mysterious

like ok aura ig

or hes hididng a lot and ik he is

BUT BUT BUT where tf am i gonna find a silly mysterious little unique guy in FUCKING WEYMOUTH

but like his loss cuz like im also silly and unique

not very mysterious but i am GREAT

and less clingy and annoying now after that dickhead

bro gave me a reality check ong

but bro literally needs one himself

aw i love him

but i HATE him

like dont come back but at the same time pls dooo

like give me a month i need to recover that shit was rough 💔

like how do i attract like the PERFECT people who are also the worst

but all things considered hes the only one i have attracted that im aware of💔

life is so hard bro

i think i just gotta be alone now my standards are too high but also so fucking low at the same time

i can forgive manipulation and emotional torture practically but when theyre not silly and stupid i draw the line

like i judge a person based off the bloody emojis they use

also i SAWEAR BRO WANTED ME FIRST or like reached out to me first

why he gotta do this mysterious disappearing shit💔💔

i know its cuz that avoidant attachment thing and LOWKEY we couldve or can work but hes also gotta try like ☹️☹️☹️💔💔

stop running away when things get too serious for too long maybe buster

ugh

nah but same dude its okay 💔💔

but also its not fuck you

i NEED to hate him otherwise i cant move on

cant let blud know i still fw him cuz im the one who left 💔💔

we never even dated💔💔💔💔 but idrc cuz the emotions were still there

BUT I WAS BASICALLY FORCED TO LEAVE BRO

LIKE WHAT DO U EXPECT

U CANT JUST ABANDON SOMEONE WITH ABANDONMENT ISSUES THATS RETARDED

but its not his fault or thats what ill keep telling myself

i will just believe that he does or did love me hes just really scared of commitment or thinks he doesnt deserve love or smth so he pulls away when it gets too serious 💔💔💔 until he tells me otherwise

BUT I KNOW HE CAN GIVE ME WHAT I WANT BECAUSE WE WANT THE SAME THINGS I THINK

i can literally give him space now ong now i have the blog i wont tweak out 💔💔💔

ugh

why do i have a eureka moment after ive abandoned him

oh well its up to him now if he wants to try that shit again cuz im not wasting my time just for him to pull the same shit its like a bloody seesaw up and down up and down like pick a side u avoidant cunt

love him to bits tho hes great and very awesome i dont hate him we are both just very mentally ill and i hope to see his return if he ever wants to try

but that doesnt mean i wont move on guys

yk maybe ill socialise!!!

maybe